I stopped posting much mostly because I feel like I don't fit into any box, and because I didn't fit a box that maybe I wasn't wanted. Also because my life doesn't look like the lives of the women I was reading all the time.
Turns out at least one of their lives doesn't look that way either.
So maybe being honest about who I am is okay, even if I don't fit any one box. :) Maybe being authentic is more important than fitting in.
So update on the real me....
I am 30 years 10 months old. ;-)
I have been married for 5 years 2 months.
I got a job last week and started training today.
We are still waiting on fertility meds. I still wanna be a Mama like crazy.
I still get spanked on a regular basis,but most of the time it's just fun. I can't accept serious punishment yet, but I am in a pretty good place overall.
I am seeing a therapist for anxiety/depression, but I think I will stop seeing her soon. I don't think she is helping.
I am writing a lot lately. My dream is to get published by blushing books, but we will see what happens. :)
I roleplay online every day and now have 3 "little" characters and like 4 "Bigs" *laugh* never thought I'd be spankING twice as much as I receive, but it's fun. :-)
I feel like every month I like sex more than the month before. We tried a new position. After 5 years of marriage and we tried a new position. we're nutso. ;-)
I feel like that's a pretty good recap of me. I am a crazy silly brat who struggles with anxiety and depression who doesn't really fit in anywhere or measure up anywhere or feel good enough or strong enough or beautiful enough, but... it's me. :)