Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Coming Out of Hiding

*waves shyly* Heeeey Y'all.... I'm not sure if anyone even reads here anymore, but if you're there - Hi. :) 

I haven't blogged in forever for lots of reasons, but this morning I was thinking about how much I hate it when people just disappear. They blog regularly and then one day they just... stop. And I didn't want to do that, so here I am.

One of the reasons I haven't blogged is that I didn't want to face the fact, be honest, that... we're not really a DD couple and haven't been for a long time. I mean by many people's definitions I guess we never were?

I don't like/feel safe/feel comfortable with that level of control over me. I like playfulness, I like protection, I like being cherished. But, I don't like actual punishment and control. Everytime I try to define who or what we are I feel like I don't match up. So, I guess I should just define us as ourselves. :) We are a couple that loves each other "whole bunches", that love Jesus, that enjoy implementing some kinky things into our relationship. :)

Another reason I haven't blogged is because the way I set up the blog was as a DD/BDSM sort of place,but the things I want to blog about don't fall into those lines. I figured I could just start another blog, but... there is a lot of me in here. My Man hates the term "journey" with this whole thing, but I feel like it IS a journey. It's a growing stretching thing. I am not the same girl I was when he married me almost 6 years ago or when I started blogging, sometimes I wonder if I am the same girl I was 6 months ago. I am constantly growing and changing and evolving. But, I am still me. :)

Update on us - My Man is moving up the ranks at work, our hope and dream is that we could move in the next year to somewhere he could make the same amount of money, but cost of living would be cheaper. I am working super part time as a telefundraiser and I LOVE IT! :) We did one round of fertility medicine last month and it seems to have worked, but I did not get pregnant. We start round two today. :) We saw w50 Shades last Thursday and I really enjoyed it. I am going to write a whole long blog post about it, possibly even today. We are doing well in our church - they are good people who are really really compassionate and loving and not judgmental or self-righteous and we feel at home there. :)

That's all for now. *hugs*


  1. Welcome Back!

    Don't worry about defining you to us. You're here and that is all that matters. I am grateful you didn't just disappear, and leave us wondering. Although I suppose I have done that off and on since going private! LOL

    I hate the word Journey, so I'm in company with your hubby. To me it conjures up images of two dogs and a cat travelling across the country to find their owners. I prefer ADVENTURE because let's face it....it has treasures and pitfalls along the way.

    Good luck with your fertility treatments!


    1. Willie!!! *massive hug* I am SO glad you stopped by!! *holds out an array of drinks and treats* help yourself! :)

      Aww, thanks. I tend to do things in phases, and blogging seems to fall into that. :) I actually did a very brave/possibly foolish thing yesterday and the blog post about 50 shades that is coming up today I posted as a note on my personal facebook. :-) :-p :-O We will see if the world explodes because of it. :)

      How are you guys doing?? I am only read the blog posts that email to me these days and I never did figure out how to email anyone's except Christina and Rogue, so it's been pretty quiet. :-p

      I was wrong, apparently he never said he dislikes the word journey. I knew you had said it, but I thought he had too. Oh well. He said as long as it's not overused it's a good term for us. Lol!

      *more huuuuuuuuuuuugs*