Friday, January 18, 2013


I feel like there is a lot of pressure in my body trying to get out.

I feel like the only way to let the pressure out is to do something really emotionally highly charged (like a religious meeting or a concert) or to cut.

I cannot do either of these things so I feel a bit desperate.

I feel like I am a failure as a person.

I feel like I am happy to be losing weight, but right now I feel like I need to eat everything in sight to full up the emptiness and yuck inside.

I feel pretty sad.

I don't feel like talking or snuggling or in anyway being near My Man because he'll just want to talk or to hold me and that isn't what I want. But it's all he can do. And that makes me feel guilty and sad.

Feelings suck. I wish I had a girl friend I could just go out and doing something crazy with. Or that I liked alcohol and I could get totally drunk and not feel bad anymore.


  1. I know how you feel. Right now I'm bored and frustrated, just plain stir crazy. I'm stuck in the house since i can't drive, I feel like I'm failing in my goals to get fit because I can't exercise with my injury and I just want to scream! Maybe tonight is a good night to pamper yourself with a relaxing bubble bath, a cup of cocoa and a good book at least that's what I'm going to try. Good luck, hope you feel better tomorrow.

    1. I am sorry!! How did you injure yourself?? I hope you have a good night. ***HUUUUG****

  2. I was spanked and fucked and buzzed.

    I feel some better. :)