I feel like there is a lot of pressure in my body trying to get out.
I feel like the only way to let the pressure out is to do something really emotionally highly charged (like a religious meeting or a concert) or to cut.
I cannot do either of these things so I feel a bit desperate.
I feel like I am a failure as a person.
I feel like I am happy to be losing weight, but right now I feel like I need to eat everything in sight to full up the emptiness and yuck inside.
I feel pretty sad.
I don't feel like talking or snuggling or in anyway being near My Man because he'll just want to talk or to hold me and that isn't what I want. But it's all he can do. And that makes me feel guilty and sad.
Feelings suck. I wish I had a girl friend I could just go out and doing something crazy with. Or that I liked alcohol and I could get totally drunk and not feel bad anymore.