Thursday, February 7, 2013

Can we take turns?

*sigh* I am sick of this "You're in charge" thing... I am ready to be equals. I am ready to not have to be responsible to anyone else. I am too pooped to poop. I don't even remember why I wanted this.

I am moody. :-p

It doesn't help that I am exhasuted and crying at the drop of a hat. And everything he does is "wrong"


I wanna go to Heaven. :)


  1. You know, it's not for everyone, this thing. If it's truly not working and making you tired, perhaps it isn't for you?

    Things take work - yes. But if it's taking work and not ever making you feel fulfilled - then why do it?

    If, on the other hand, it does add something to your relationship that you enjoy and don't want to lose... then perhaps you need to evaluate what things it adds and find what to change to keep those things without the exhausting part. There's no script here except the one you guys make.

    1. Yeah, I need to write more. It's not as much being weary of this lifestyle as it is being weary in general. I am so tired by the middle of the day I feel like I can't even breathe. I think it was a combo of being so sick and then getting my period my body is just done. :-p

      And we can never make any decisions in this season because I get so emotional. Like We could say "ok this isn't working we are done" and then in a week, when I feel better again, be like "I MISS THIS"

      I don't actually know. I really goes back to trying to have a relationship that we both want. I don't want him to be able to tell me what to do in real sense, but I feel like I SHOULD. And he doesn't want the other aspects if he doesn't get to be in charge all the time? I dunno. :-p :)

      I feel a little better right now having just woken up at 10am :)