I feel like writing, but don't really know what I am wanting to write about. So I am gonna word-vomit and then whatever seems to be a popular topic (for me, interesting and popular for me. What I want to hear myself talk about ;-)) will get the bulk of the writing.
I got to give my 14 year old sis "The Talk" a few days ago. She took it very well and we have been laughing about it since then. I am glad. I didn't want to be the one to scar her for life.
Does anyone else bleed after sex? It's just in the last 6 months, if we have really vigorous sex I have blood for a time or two of using the restroom after. And cramps. Like baby menstrual or ovulation cramps. I get them for a few hours after. But not "down there", more like under my belly button. Very weird.
Also, does semen make anyone else itchy?? If I don't wipe out really well after it gets burning and REALLY itchy like an hour later. If I go to sleep before "taking care of business" the next morning is QUITE uncomfortable.
I was a decent girl this morning. I emptied and loaded the dishwasher before sitting down on the computer. Our house is so trashed again. *sigh* We are legitmately talking about hiring my uber clean organized sis to come once or twice a month to clean for us.
The whole diet/exercise thing is really hard. The diet is harder for me than the exercise though. I can't just eat salads for the rest of my life and even "good" things like boneless skinless chicken breast have a bazillion calories. *Sigh* I have not had any sweets though. Like no ice cream or sweet tea or candy. I did have some gum... I wish the gym was closer to my house and I didn't feel scared going alone. My Man works hard at work, so he doesn't like to go to the gym every day, he will for me, but he is so tired I hate to force him. It's also hard because My Man doesn't need to diet - he just needs to work out. (need = this is what he has chosen ;-)), and I am not a great "alone" person. Also, getting lose calorie foods from fast food or cheaper sit down is almost impossible. And cooking isn't always possible. Ugh. I wish this were easy. I guess the good news is that I REALLY like going on the treadmill now. I don't go very fast, but it DOES relax me and that is a new thing. I am noticing on the days where I don't work out I am more depressed. hmm....
I want to go rent a small cabin or house or something for a week. Nothing fancy, just somewhere we can be alone and noisy and relaxed. I want to do kinky stuff, do normal stuff kinkily (like cooking naked :D), read, watch movies (I want a place without cable, so we are forced to watch movies or old tv shows...we both have so many things we want to watch with the other, but with so many shows to "keep up on" we never get to those), play card and board games, and just... exist. without anyone else. Without any responsibilities. Just love being together again.
I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT CHRISTMAS!!!! I got My Man some cool stuff and I know he put a lot of thought into my gifts this year, so I am pretty stoked!! :-D I am NOT (NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT NOT notnotnotnotnotnotnotnotnotnotnotnotnot) excited about travelling to visit his family. Our current schedule is - 22 his maternal grandparents and aunts uncles cousins etc in a small house with a dog and a lot of cigarette smoke (i have allergies)(like 6 hours round trip one day), 23 his mom, 24 his dad, 25 home in the morning and my fam and Grandma in the afternoon (excited about this), 26 paternal grandparents with aunts uncles cousins his siblings (not other kids so they will be excited to talk to us the whole time :-p ;-)) (we are either doing 6/7 hours in one day or spending the night not sure) Then the 1st of Jan is my Dad's brother (i LIKE going there ;-)) and sometimes in Jan or Feb is Mama's family (I like this too...it's my family and less stress ;-)) I think I am stressed because I feel like his family (His Mom's mom especially) judge me. I am overweight, I am not a good "housewife" or cook or everything else I SHOULD be, and it's loud and hot and... there is no one my age either place. Like his mom's family it's people over 60, his mom/her wife/his uncle/his wife, and then his siblings and 2 cousins who are 11 and 14? His cousins are fun to talk to, and maybe I can talk them into playing cards or something. :) At his dad's it's his grandparents *80's*, his aunts and uncles *60's*, their random friends and stuff, and his cousins who are actually my age RARELY come and if they do they don't talk to me. And his married sister who is my age... I don't want to say she doesn't like me, but... it feels like she looks down on me and... SHE CUT ME OUT OF THE FAMILY PICTURE!! Sorry.. this is a new thing I haven't even told Ben... There is a picture of all the "girls" and I was in it, and my hair is STILL in it, but she cut me out...and then tagged me "I love you too, Young Lady!" So... maybe she cut me out because I looked bad and she was trying to be kind or maybe I really wasn't in that shot and it just looks like wisps of my hair in the corner... I dunno... I am just stressed about seeing all of his family. :-p
I guess that is enough rambling... I could go all day. ;-)